newbits

my new cd arrived in the mail today. pretty exciting. a few months ago, josh pool and i challenged and encouraged one another to record solo albums in our living rooms using only our laptops and imaginations. and we both did it. pretty rad. we have a show coming up on march 27th. kind of a celebration of that. it feels refreshing. and scary. to create something and then send it off into the world to be judged. for it to go out and have experiences apart from you.

i have been thinking a lot about art lately. i was watching something recently where they were talking about how the most important trait an artist can have, to be successful, is selfishness. to ultimately succeed, an artist must be completely self focused, severing love, indulging in extreme. because, at its core, art, is ultimate self reflection. all the great artists throughout history died young, were multiple divorcees, substance abusers, assholes etc. but they were raw and in touch with their most inner self, caring not for anything the world saw or thought. it was about their expression.

there is also such an undeniable sense of transparency. which can be, in turn, a good thing. so, i've been wrestling with this for awhile, and will continue to. i have a need to create. and i do so, without ever needing anyone to see or hear the outcome. its a drive at my innermost. and i appreciate that which i see come from others creations. artistic expression is such an honest look into someone. there must be ways in which that can be used in a positive light...

anywho. was half way through fountainhead and i seem to have misplaced it. so i'm starting stephen kings newest opus, under the dome, which is well over a thousand pages. i need to start reading shorter books. i'm looking forward to dragging derek to shutter island sometime this week. right now, i have a meeting with the mary pickford foundation and hot topic. tomorrow hurlrey.